təmˈpleɪ
–noun
1. the act of contemplating; thoughtful observation.
2. full or deep consideration; reflection: religious contemplation.
3. purpose or intention.
4. prospect or expectation.
So I am sitting here listening to My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy (which is an amazing album), I am in thought...Determining whats worth my time and why I should give a glance otherwise...There are a million things going on in my life...and it seems the more time is passing the few things that matters...I could count what matters to me on like one hand seemingly. My mental of not really caring is showing its ugly head...because people are giving reason...Its funny how when you focus on something you think that is worth it and turns out that focus was a waste...it is YOU that always feels like the idiot...So am I sitting here feeling like an idiot...yes I do...it seems like every bit of my energy have been misplaced and wasted...I would list the five things...but that is something that I am not just going to divulge to everyone...Not because I don't want to hurt feelings cause that means nothing...just kind of well you know...But anyways...I don't get a lot of things these days...it seems like everything is just screwed up...no matter how many screws i tighten on the table it is still wobbling...Its crazy when one thing goes right five go wrong...Back to where I started...wasted energy...seems like I have been doing that a lot...I was taught that waste put in a working situation...cause you only to work harder and get less out of it...Makes sense right...yes yes it does...I mean don't get me wrong I always work hard even when i don't look like it...i for go sleep, i for go life, i do what i have to...but i never really do it for me...Here is where the contemplation come into play...maybe life is the way it is because i don't do things for me...I know i am not here to live life for anyone else...but i always go against that principle...That's really a weird thing when you consider my trust for people is next to none...I hate people but i love gatherings....what a line i tell ya...Normally when i am writing I am on a soapbox...today not so much...no funny lines...no references to people...just basically saying...My era of caring is slowly dying...To some they will wonder...to others they wont careless...to me...starting to be all the same...A whatever situation....and that the truth!!!! These are the tales of a Methodical Mind!!!! What does it all mean...Wouldn't you like to know...
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