Contemplation

con·tem·pla·tion

   /ˌkɒntəmˈpleɪʃən, -tɛm-/ Show Spelled[kon-tuhm-pley-shuhn, -tem-] Show IPA

–noun

1. the act of contemplating; thoughtful observation.

2. full or deep consideration; reflection: religious contemplation.

3. purpose or intention.

4. prospect or expectation.

 

So I am sitting here listening to My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy (which is an amazing album), I am in thought...Determining whats worth my time and why I should give a glance otherwise...There are a million things going on in my life...and it seems the more time is passing the few things that matters...I could count what matters to me on like one hand seemingly. My mental of not really caring is showing its ugly head...because people are giving reason...Its funny how when you focus on something you think that is worth it and turns out that focus was a waste...it is YOU that always feels like the idiot...So am I sitting here feeling like an idiot...yes I do...it seems like every bit of my energy have been misplaced and wasted...I would list the five things...but that is something that I am not just going to divulge to everyone...Not because I don't want to hurt feelings cause that means nothing...just kind of well you know...But anyways...I don't get a lot of things these days...it seems like everything is just screwed up...no matter how many screws i tighten on the table it is still wobbling...Its crazy when one thing goes right five go wrong...Back to where I started...wasted energy...seems like I have been doing that a lot...I was taught that waste put in a working situation...cause you only to work harder and get less out of it...Makes sense right...yes yes it does...I mean don't get me wrong I always work hard even when i don't look like it...i for go sleep, i for go life, i do what i have to...but i never really do it for me...Here is where the contemplation come into play...maybe life is the way it is because i don't do things for me...I know i am not here to live life for anyone else...but i always go against that principle...That's really a weird thing when you consider my trust for people is next to none...I hate people but i love gatherings....what a line i tell ya...Normally when i am writing I am on a soapbox...today not so much...no funny lines...no references to people...just basically saying...My era of caring is slowly dying...To some they will wonder...to others they wont careless...to me...starting to be all the same...A whatever situation....and that the truth!!!! These are the tales of a Methodical Mind!!!! What does it all mean...Wouldn't you like to know...

 

Change!!! An Impossible Feat!!!

Change!!!!

–verb (used with object)

1.

to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of(something) different from what it is or from what it would beif left alone: to change one's name; to change one's opinion;to change the course of time.

This is my favorite definition of the word that seems to be the most problem for people stuck in a rut. It is weird as I write about this situation as it is a very personal situation to myself. I seemed to be stuck in a rut for the longest. My symptoms my be similar or much different then yours, but I am just going to throw them out there.

First off-Dead End Job-I had one working for a corporation that could give a damn if I was there for twenty years or three days. Lets be honest there was no where to move to it really was not worth it. And most importantly I did not hate it but it did not make me a better person at the end of the day.

Second-No Life! That is right work was my life. I didn't have time to hang out with friends or family because of it. Hell the thing that took the biggest hit was my music. I couldn't record a song to save my life because on my days off I had to do laundry or sleep. Trying to catch up with everything was impossible because I was always behind. I used my days off to pay bills and run because I could not do it during the week. I was pitiful!!!

Third-Monotony- I really hate that word as everyday played out exactly the same. Not the same situation but the same situation. Up, work, home, insomnia, sleep for three hours, and rinse and repeat. You would think I was like fifty, but no no far from it. This is almost the worst but there that will stick to everyone.

Fourth and the Worst-Comfort-Nothing is more wrong then a person being stuck in a situation because it is comfortable. Knowing that the situation is not getting them anywhere. They are not really enjoying much of anything. And they believe it is what society would want them to do. Simple as stating they are seeking a life of the dreaded NORMALCY. Comfort in things the way they are destroy more people then cancer, aids, or any extended watching of anything involving MTV or BET.

I speak from experience because I have been comfortable and when it is actually taken from you. A person beings to panic because they don't know how to deal with the situation. It is like making a rich person poor or Taylor Swift losing the mic to Kanye, what do you do. Change is the number one fear of people and they don't even know it. Fact is that most people can't adapt to change let alone bring it on themselves. Funny this is all going back to settling (If you haven't read it you need to!). I have no clue about why it scares people but it does. People just automatically assume that change is for the worst. If it is mentioned something you are doing is not right or it isn't up to par. That is more far from the truth then anything being said. Change is usually made to strengthen what you are doing right. Even if everything is wrong how is changing going to make things any worst then what they are. People always look at change from an emotional standpoint and never logical.

No I am not saying everything has to be from a logical standpoint. Gut feelings my friends if you have them are the greatest weapon against anything in this world. Unless yours are usually wrong then you need to do the exact opposite. But not everything in the world need emotional input. Hard to say that if the change is going to move you away from friends and family, but at the same time where are they going. If they are you real friends they have been there for years and I am pretty sure your family is not going to hate you. Matter in fact by doing something different you are going to make new friend to add to your circle. The best things come from change. Hell black people should know all about it, sad thing is most don't. If things were not build on change nothing would get anywhere.

So what is that rant all about. It is amazing how many people deny change because they cannot control it. I myself have been living my life on change for the past four months. If there wasn't so much change I would have never finished my last mix tape. I probably would have stopped rapping, gave up something that I believed in and became my mother. Don;t get me wrong but my mother settled in more ways then one. Love her to absolute death but I wish she would of changed something for herself. I make change. I am not going to sit around and just hope for things to happen. I make them happen. I am not scared of change because the worst it can do is bring on a new challenge. Challenges are what I live for. If there are no challenge at least I am damn sure to learn something. I am not born of the same cloth as most people nor are the people I hang around. I am not scared by what is different or something new. I embrace it. If I did not I would still be stuck at Gamestop. Why did I lose a job because I would not reform and become something I wasn't. I changed the game on the way people ran things and I got results. Seems to go for every other things that I put my hands on. Change is the simplest thing you can do to enhance you life, but why would you not do it when nothing else is working. 

I am not saying put down what you are doing and make the biggest change in your life. If you need to handle that if you don't. Start small eat something different, listen to music outside of your norm, read about a different culture, hang with a different crowd. Open your mind to a new experience you might be surprise. I have been surprised by it enough times that I am willing to almost try anything once, unless it is stupid or only asking for trouble. Believe in yourself to initiate and deal with change. And if someone is sending you some negative energy on it. Prove them wrong, prove them all wrong. One person can change the world but not before they can change themselves. Simple Enough. Guess you will have to find out yourself.

Wun Nation!!!! Peace!!!!

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Why Settle???

Having a conversation with one of my homeboys this evening...it posed a question...a question that people seem to no longer ask themselves...Why Settle???...And that right there goes for everything in life...why settle when it comes to your education...when it comes to you school...when it comes to relationships...why do so many people settle...is it because it is the way of society...is it because your parents did the same things...is it because that is the easy way...why would you compromise things that make you who you are...

Work: We will start here as this the easiest and most settled of all things...how many people in this world can say that they are satisfied with their jobs...4 out of 5 of my friends say differently...they don't have careers they have jobs...living paycheck to paycheck not satisfied because it is killing them on the inside...there not happy...they are all either extremely intelligent or extremely artistic but there are in fields that have nothing to do with anything they ever did...situation really is heart breaking cause i am like damn you deserve better you family deserves better but what do you do...when did people start living to society standards...by living the American dream of a nice 9 to 5 Monday Thur Friday working hard at a desk...just hoping that someone higher then you will pay attention to your work and you will move to the next level...

Guess what it is all a lie...most people who do the work get passed over for the Yes man or woman...usually you don't get paid your worth...they aren't forthcoming with the raise that you deserve...expect to be used because they know you will do anything that you can if they hold some money or a promotion over you...That right there is the American way...sorry boys and girls there are just simple numbers and if you break them down...the statistics can be a bit overwhelming...a wise man once said it isn't WHAT you know...it is WHO you know...another simple fact that people can never seem to looks past...For some people this is the dream but for the other 75% of you...maybe you need to think about your future....

Relationships: This is just a sad situation...people who settle because their parents things it appropriate or their friends think it is the right thing to do...heck i know someone who got married not because of love...it was for financial reasons...that is sad...evening among those relationships goes friendships....nothing worse then a forced friendship (if you need more info see earlier blog)...relationships with people because you believe they make you cooler...or even just trying to fit it...is it that hard for people to be themselves...(getting into that next)...why settle for something with someone that isn't a fulfilling experience...be it you heart...your mind...hell even your soul...why would you settle once again for what you believe society wants...do you see where i am going with this...if you do just read on anyways...whatever kind of relationship you are in...should always balance out 50/50...there is nothing else for you to settle on...anything else is pure stupidity...to help someone who doesn't want to help themselves especially after multiple trials are just ridiculous...the exact same goes for someones heart...if they didn't love you before it started...how in the hell are they going to fall in love with you...cupid doesn't exist and if he does i believe he is running match.com so might wanna try there instead if you are looking for that amazing relationship that will cost you some money per month to maintain...lol

You: How people compromise their moral, their intelligence, even their bodies...i will never understand...why would you change who you are for a person or a job...anytime you have to change when there was nothing wrong in the first place you will never ever be happy...nothing you do an make you happy if you cant control yourself...i cant stand when girls are like he will like me more if i lose 30 lbs...or a guy is like if i kiss my bosses but at work for a little while they will look at me for this promotion...that is the most absolute failure if i have ever heard one...if you have to change who you are and your not an actor or a detective you need to rethink your life...funny thing about me is no matter who i am around...no matter who i am talking to...i am always the same...it is why people respect me so much as i never break character for anyone...i am going talk to my peoples the same way i am going to talk to President Obama or Bill Gates cause in my eyes you are a man just like I am...

It amazes me as time goes on people are less and less creative...informed...and just original...i remember when i was in high school those kids were called weird...now they are trendsetting...i remember when music had some originality...now it is called a fad...i remember once upon a time you can dictate who you wanted to be...now you have corporations...when did the artist become the store manager...the rapper became the sandwich maker...when did the college diploma become a piece of paper...I guess the same time when people stopped dreaming and people lost hope...

Wun's Nation and I am Signing off....Holla Back!!!!

FRIENDS!!!! The Real Truth!!!!!

FRIEND

–noun


1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
 
There are about seven definition but this is by far the best....Sad thing is that many people know of the word, yet very few understand it...A lot of people think that the friends that have are real friend but nothing more then acquaintances. If you really needed something...nine time out of then they will not be there...or they are not willing to help...And as times go on, friendship is becoming harder to seek out because most people cant be true to themselves let alone another being. Distrust is the worst thing you can have an any friendship yet a lot of people base their friendships on distrust and fronts...Which honestly to me is pure and utter garbage...Why this rant???...Well I am about to break this down and then I want you to look at your people around you and figure our if what you think really exist or you just lost in the mist of drama and other BS.
 
1.)Lies-This right here is where I am going to start off as it is a good one. A true friend would never lie to you about a situation that you are caught up in...A true friend would only lies not to destroy your feelings...sometimes you need a kick to you hind end but a friend would never destroy you. If that is going on and they do it on a constant...Trash them...and I mean seriously...if you are near a dumpster or a trash can you might want to look into throwing them right into it....
 
2.)Drama-Stop!!! If a friend ever cause you drama about some he said she said bull...You need to confront them as soon as possible...First they will deny it as people don't like confrontation...Eventually they will break and then say well I didn't see any harm in what was said. They knew exactly what they were doing...Unless that friends is a little bit mentally retarded I don't think that passes...I mean don't get me wrong we have said things at the wrong time by accident and once every great while is okay but if it is happening all the time...don't be an idiot...tell them to kick rocks and on to the next one...
 
3.)Leechers-My personal favorite cause they are comedy. Always asking for something, not to borrow something or to help them out...they always want stuff to KEEP..They borrow something you never get it back...every time they come around they are needy or there is a favor to ask...you ask them to do something and they are like why would I do that and become petty about it...Feel sorry for no one my life is just as hard as anyone else...get over it grow up and handle your own...they will then get offended then they storm off like a cheesy villain with there plans being foiled by scooby doo and the gang...
 
4.)The Disappearing Homie-This is the most classic one to me...These are the quote friends who just randomly disappear and reappear in you life...The kind that goes to a party and leaves without saying bye...or better yet he is your ride and he leaves you at the party...Often they will hit the button when you call or don't respond back to text...hey are not in particularly bad but it isn't a healthy relationship...I mean you don't have to talk to your friends every day but not speaking to them for months at a time and you all didn't lose touch...yeah let it go...They must have better things to do or something...True friends always hit you even just to say whats up or talk about some really stupid stuff that happened or a new song they heard...I am not a phone person to be honest but I keep in touch with people...
 
5.) The Faker-The worst of the worst kind of friend. They are what you see in the high school movies or what you deal with in high school possibly. The friends who are only your friends behind close doors. When they see you out in public they avoid you at all cost...and if someone else was to see them talking to you they would make up an excuse...or they talk about you to that person...yet in all reality you always have conversations with them and they care but they have a quote rep to keep and you aren't part of it...It is amazingly sickening especially when you are grown...Sad thing is that a lot of people put up with this...I mean it goes on everywhere (work place, parties, gatherings, performances, etc) To be honest if you really want to see this type of friendship in person watch; Don't Buy Me Love, Breakfast Club, or any 80's teen movie for that fact of the matter...If someone doesn't want to be seen or noticed with you...only person you are hurting is yourself...Because you are lying to yourself...really don't you lie to yourself about enough...honestly...
 
Now back to the matter at hand, you are like wait wait but where are the good friends list...True friends exist under one category and it is just that...A TRUE Friend!!!!...True friends don't have categories...they are the person you call when you car is broke down and you are three hours away...they are the person you call when you need out of jail...true friends when called come quicker to your rescue then the super friends...hell they even come to your rescues when you aren't even sure that you need to be rescued...true friends are there...my true friends I have had for years...well most and to be a 100% honest i would take a bullet for them...I have friends who I have know for 20+ years and i would do everything for them...hell i go some new people in my small circle right now that I would go to war for...I don't ask question...I don't ask for anything in return...They just know because they would go to the same lengths for me...People tell me all the time I don't understand you and such and such...and I just shake my head and laugh...I would feel sorry for them but it is there issue that they don't have true friends...my friends are more then that...they are my family...i would introduce them as my family...ya know even if we lose touch...when we meet up again...you would swear we never missed a beat...the little things are just that little and they would never come between that relationship...you brush that off and move along...Think about it...for you true friends how far would you go for them...better yet how far would they go for you...Do they actually help you or do they hinder you...Do they come thru when needed...or they like leaves in the breeze...In a day where most people are about as really as a girls chest in a porno movie you need to beware of those around you...Now I am not saying Trust No One...Life isn't the Thing or Total Drama Island...you have to trust otherwise you wont get anywhere...but if your circle of friends and i mean close circle is more then twenty then you need to question your circle...My circle is decent sized but I mean they have been accumulated over a life time...If you find yourself questioning your relationship with said person...you need to roll them out like a virgin at a strip club...because you are only kidding yourself if you believe things are going to pop off...well they might just not the way you want them...
 
Oh yeah by the way you want to know what kind of friend I am...lol...well if you are lucky then you already know...if you are not...well...you will be alright...
 
I am Lost N Mind....
 
Meth Wun Signing Out!!!!